We had a difficult winter. It’s been a rough few months.
I am sorry that I haven’t written in quite awhile and honestly it isn’t because my body and weight have been all over the place. Because to be quite honest… it has been. Life just got me. I have been on the upswing though. And I wanted to write to everyone so many times over the last two weeks and I just haven’t been able to focus. But I am here. And I know it’s not Thursday so maybe you’ll hear from me later in the week too. Ya never know.
So let’s catch up. I weight myself today. 308.5lbs. My body fat was 29.7%. I personally think these little machines are crap but I have no one to caliper me so it’s the best that I can do. If you look at the screen shot I posted to the left you’ll see that it’s been a freaking roller coaster to say the least. And I’d be remiss to not tell you that I am frazzled a bit. I look at things by the numbers. I am not much father along then what I was a year ago. That depresses me a little because I have worked so damn hard this past year. So what the hell am I doing wrong. My weight really can’t go up and down like this yo yo on the left can it? And I don’t want to be driven my a scale but for the love of god! I think at this point I should have this on lock… But look at the weight on the left. I am a mess and have been floating around the same weight for months. So what do you do?
Have you really been giving it your all? Do you believe your own motivational posts? I mean it starts with a good heart and then I see the Kit Kat at Wawa and I want the Kit Kat at Wawa and then I eat the Kit Kat at Wawa. I mean it’s a Kit Kat for christ’s sake. Or I’ll work my ass off all day and then lose my self control at night. It was much easier a year ago. But I was struggling then to to get the 100lbs off. At least those are still way off. And I am still in my 42 jeans and very comfortable in an XL t-shirt. That’s a long way from a size 60 and 4/5xl when I started this journey 26 months ago. Perspective right?
So what do you do? I got up this morning and had my oatmeal. did my work. Made turkey meatballs for lunch. Got my protein in. Went to boot camp Prepped some lean ground meat and then made sure I finished my gallon of water and I hit my Macros perfectly for the first time in a long time and here I am blogging. Tomorrow I’ll go to OTF, iDominate and then I’ll back to bullet bootcamp and lift a little. Time to fire up some muscle. Summer is coming.
I got out for two nice 50 minute bike rides last week. 13 miles total. It was nice. I am going to force more biking into my routine. I really enjoy it. I just have to get my butt used to the seat. Damn, you would think the squats would help. Everyone at Campos is trying to build a booty and I am over there trying to get rid of mine.
I think add a little more ink since I’ve been missing too. Check out the photos below.
So I wanted you all to know what I am okay… I am still here and I am still fighting. I know Thursday is St. Patrick’s Day but I promise you’ll all hear back from me by the end of the week to check in and let you know what I am up to and how I am doing!.
I’m okay. I promise
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