I I wanna swim out with the mermaid what’s the difference?
I can’t sleep
I’m gonna chase the mermaid and let her take me to the deep
I didn’t come to get hurt
I came to get clean
I tried to sing on my own
I get bored with the scene
What’s a white boy to do
Except to share in the guilt?
I wanna lasso the moon
Like Bathsheba saying treat yourself – Dave House (Bury Me In Philly)
I am sorry it’s been two weeks and usually when I disappear I am depressed and in hiding… But that’s not the case. Yes as usually things don’t move or change as fast I would like them to but that isn’t something I can control all the time. I am staying the course. I am trying my damn best at everything.
Gym. Kitchen. Band. Life.
So before I run off for a week in the sun and finding myself in the salt air…. I thought I’d check in here and say hello.
So since we’ve last talked I’ve gone to see Third Eye Blind, driven a few hundred miles, come home from the shore in the middle of the night and have pretty much killed my work outs except for a day off that I took this week. I ended up in urgent care yesterday. I am hopefully I just went at my abs too hard on Monday cause they’ been sore and even made it harder for me to sing at rehearsal Tuesday Night. And I was singing some HIGH stuff. So I went to get checked out. Peed in the cup, had blood taken and checked. Pee is good. Blood is good. They were thinking I might have a hernia and should get it checked if the pain doesn’t subside. So I am gonna take it easy for a few days and hope the pain dulls a little more.
Didn’t weight myself this morning. Didn’t care. I feel fantastic. I know I said I wasn’t going to dye my hair anymore but I crumbled last night. Last week I was playing at Carney’s and this girl was jamming out. Her whole group was into the songs, dancing, made me so happy and I got off the stage, ran to the restroom, did a shot and she was standing my my stuff, I grabbed one of our new rack cards… and went to tell her about the photos we take etc… and she asked me to take a photo together. I was like sure, no problem… Then she tells me that her mom and dad are gonna love it, they’ve been telling her about the band for 15 years, “My mom loves you”. You aren’t fat though.
KILL ME NOW! Where is the fucking hair dye.
The truth is. I am the strongest and most confident that I’ve ever been on stage. I was really glad that the girl said hello and hope her mom and dad liked the photos. That’s what this life is all about. I keep doing what I do but life keeps moving for the people around me. Ya know… the girls move less and less anymore on stage and I move more and more. It’s weird. They are stuck to their microphone stands and I never have one when I am singing leads on a song. Fuck it, get out of my way. This is my time 🙂 Luckily there aren’t too many long guitar solos in my songs or Baba would take my ass out! Look at me, I’m the king of shit mountain! Damn.. 20 summers of this shit.
Well let me tell you about Third Eye Blind… They played their self titled LP from begin to end in the middle of their show. I was in heaven. It’s one of my favorite CDS EVER! I play the vinyl all the time and went crazy to get it. Let my tell you about the concert through my wifes eyes first. This is what she posted on FB after the show.
We started at the side.. and got even closer than this photo by the time they hit the last song… I got to hear “Motorcycle Driveby” and “God of Wine” live. I was afraid to do a lot of things for a lot of year but we sure as shit are making up for them this year. I won’t lie, my back HUUUUUURTTTT come Monday. 🙂
Well I am gonna check out here. I might have a few more things to say in the photos below. I am heading to swim with the mermaids for a week or so. Time to find my happy. Might never come home. Don’t worry, I’ll be in the gym too!
Love you guys. Thanks for reading.