Thank you, Goodnight.

It’s Monday, January 21.

I figured that I would write a little bit every day this week. If we fast forward through the weekend, on Friday night we went out to dinner and had drinks with friends and the kids and actually behaved. It seems like Naked chicken wings are the thing to do when we are out because there’s a good chance that most bars will have them. Had a couple vodka and diet’s – Really digging this new distillery in my neighborhood.

I had a show on Saturday night.

The weather sucked but yet I think we did our best numbers in good old Warrington Pennsylvania. I had two separate couples there to see us for weddings that I got to talk to and will hopefully close the deal with. Went there with snow beating down in the my face and left in a typhoon of water.

On Sunday I decide to follow Baba’s lead and set the tone for the week early. So I ended up going to the gym and doing back and abs. I also did a little cardio. We then went to American Eagle where I officially bought my first pair of 34/34 jeans – And then later in the afternoon we used my buddy Mike’s Costco card and went to check out all the keto things that they had to offer. Stuck to my eating all weekend long. Sunday afternoon was lower number so I kinda was hoping that I was beginning to catch another fat swoosh.

But today is Monday and is 9° outside with the wind so fast that it definitely puts us in that feels like -10° zone. But I thought I had a sales meeting at 9 AM so I was in the gym by 730 this morning on the elliptical. I did chest and biceps and came home to settle in for work. I might have a overdid it a little on my electrolytes because I was thirsty as hell most of the morning I need to stay close to the bathroom.

I am not sure what this scale is going to say tomorrow and I have to go for my final re-treatment on a root canal but today I entered the next 10 pounds. And I’m officially around 8 pounds from my big goal. If you’re looking at total number since I started pushing hard last April, as of this evening I am down 76 pounds in nine months. I am down 155 pounds in the last five years. Crazy that 76 of it really came off in the last nine months. All the up-and-downs after I lost my initial hundred. Wish I could go back and talk to that kid.

But I did a lot of work today, stayed off my phone and social media and really tried to practice what I was talking about in my last blog. Even if it is just watching television and sitting with the dogs.

I spent Martin Luther King afternoon watching a movie called the green book. About a black musician during days of segregation on a tour in the south. I highly recommend it.

Tomorrow is another day and we will see what my body does with this last major round of antibiotics as I have this last tooth fixed. Hopefully it will stay underneath the last mile stone because I really needed this win today.

One of the women I am coaching is down 11 pounds in a little over 2 weeks – And the other is very close to her 30 pound mark since Thanksgiving. No pills, no shakes, no joke, just self-control, discipline and no excuses. And by the way for you motherfuckers who just say well I wish I had time to go live in the gym like you do, neither of these women can get to the gym. Just saying.

Tuesday’s truth bomb. (More shit that I have to practice)

If the grass looks greener on the other side. Stop staring. Stop comparing. Stop complaining and start watering the grass you’re standing on.

That’s all I’ll say about that. Again, you can post all the memes you want about cutting dead weight out of your life – and you’d also need to realize that you might actually get what you want. Then what happens? What happens if you actually get what you want? Will that make you happy?

I had my final root canal pretreatment today. 6 long ass appointments over the last 2 1/2 months. The scale was pretty much the same this morning. It will be interesting to see what it is in the morning after 3000MG amoxicillian. it hasn’t ripped up my stomach like I thought but at least when it settles I am done. It wasn’t very infected today so I don’t have to go through to much of it. I hope that I don’t have to fight too much gain from the medicine.

Today was day two of silence and mindfulness. I found myself don’t scrolling up or down FB. It was something my friend Baba told me about during the last elections and the world was going to shit. Post if you needed to but don’t scroll up or down. Who would have thought that one of the first things I would tackle in 2019 was Mindfulness. Good times.

I did almost an hour of cardio today and it took me two trips but I did triceps and biceps today. Slow and steady.

Wednesday. 4000 mg Of amoxicillin will add roughly 4 pounds to the scale. I know what it is. I know why. It still sucks. Get me out of this block of numbers again, wtf!

But like anything else you just push through. My body will have to figure it out because I’m just too tired. I think I go through spurts of excess caffeine and then get restless sleep. I don’t know.

I’m forced to deal with what I feel today.

Feelings. Blah!

On September 20th, 2021 Bigg Romeo will be 25 years old. I think maybe some bets should be placed to see if the band will make it. The band might, I am not sure that I will. I just feel very beat up by things, people, and situations that I, we, whatever can’t control.

I was feeling pretty good this morning. Crushed legs. Broke PR’s in the leg press and hack squat today. As quick as a phone call it was gone.

But hey, I’ll shut up now.

This might be a good time for my self help motivational point of the week. I have been practicing last weeks for the last few days.

SET YOUR BOUNDARIES

It’s not your job to fix anyone but yourself
It is okay to say no
It’s not my job to take responsibility for others
Nobody has to agree with me
I am responsible for my own happiness
I have a right to my own feelings
I have a right to express my needs honestly.
I have a right to let go
I am enough

And if that is not enough I have another piece of insight for you this week. You can take it for whatever it’s worth. You can delete this blog and never look here again if you want that’s OK too. Again, I don’t do this to call anyone out, I write for me. It’s much much cheaper than therapy. And I don’t have to leave the house.

So here is something that I have to do more of as well.

Care about your own health.

There was a time that my health was way down on My list of priorities and, because of that I let myself blow up to the point where it affected my life.

In short, I was really unhappy, most likely on the verge of getting sick, and really fat. At least God gave me a cute face and a decent personality, lol.

It eventually clicked on stage one night that I needed to make myself a priority: in other words, love myself. I remember the exact moment when I decided I’d had enough. I thought, I’m done. I’ve had enough. I am well and truly sick of being like this, at that moment I decided to get healthy.

And trust me you can be very skinny and still be very unhealthy. Just saying.

Thursday.

I should most likely go live with my blog today. Thursdays have been blog day. And while I will write, I most likely won’t post anything until tomorrow. I’m kind of digging the silence.

The 4000 mg amoxicillin raging through my body has done a number on me but I am just about out of the 260s again. And much closer to the 258 that I was on Sunday before all this crap had to happen to my body.

I went hard so far at the gym today and after four days the soreness in my muscles, in my legs especially tell me to take a break. I was going to go kickboxing this morning and I actually slept till 9 AM which never happens for me. So I’m sitting here talking into my telephone with My dogs laying across my lap, my work laptop next to me as well as my Mac. Trying to decide what I’m going to stream on the television.

I guess when I chip away at the things that I wanted to accomplish every month, this is going to count as a “me” day. LOL.

It’s now the mid afternoon. I realize that I kind a hate rest Days. They make me restless. And I am also glad that I am done with the dentist for a while because knowing that my weight went up I don’t care if it’s because of the amoxicillin or not. Sucks. I’m still down since last week so I guess that’s a plus.

Maybe I will just delete all this crap that I wrote this week and not even post this week. Sometimes silence is violent.

Let’s talk about at least one non-scale victory this week. Maybe that will make me feel better today.

Amber and I went to American Eagle on Sunday. And bought some stuff. I bought my first pair of 34/34 jeans – She bought a bunch of size 6 pants herself. But I tried on a pair of extra large joggers. They look too big. So I tried on a pair of large joggers and they look the way they’re supposed to look. Tight and slim. I bought two pair.

Amber bought Brett a few pair from Kohl’s that were a little big for him, it was so awesome to be able to say well I’ll take them. Since they are size large too. I have been wearing those all week. Nice and comfy. Never thought that I would like joggers. I might just live in these.

OK then that is probably enough for Thursday.

Friday

Got my sorry ass up. Hit the gym for a little bit. Incredibly distracted with work and band things And muddled through a very short circuit.

I have still not come back completely from the amoxicillin but my meals and everything else have been on point. WAKE UP FRANCO!!!!! I’m in size large tall from American Eagle for god sake so I’m going to half to take that as a great week. And be happy with just being where I am. That is OK. I am OK.

I have rambled enough for one week.

I leave you with this.

Don’t let your heart get hardened into stone
Don’t lose yourself in looking at your phone for validation.
If you have so many so-called friends
And you still feel alone more often then not,
Then you should spend more time with the do’s than with the don’ts.

Have a great weekend!

Back to silence!

Franco