Today is the first day since I have started down this road that I am ready to shut it all down.
I have busted my ass for the last two weeks in the gym. Have been more careful about my food. And I am back at 313. I don’t understand. I don’t get it Maybe my body is just not going to let me get under 300 again. I’ve been getting a gallon of water down a day. What I don’t understand is that on Monday, after a day of drinking and eating fried shit on Sunday, I weighed 308 and today it’s 313. What the flying fuck? What do I do? I am really just tired. I am tired of chicken. I am tired of trying to weight all my food out. I am tired of water, I am tired of planning my days around workouts when the reward is just soul crushing.
I was walking around the house Tuesday night pounding my chest, being silly, feeling strong. Feeling happy. Today the scale just totally shot me in the heart.
So I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to do. I was going to write about my bootcamp week and OTF but honestly it’s not worth it. No one is reading this anyway. And if anyone actually does I’ll get the whole muscle weighs more than fat. It’s the 11th. I need to lose 13 pounds by the end of this month. So do I stop lifting and just do cardio? Do I not eat anything unless it came from an egg? Do I get a coach to get me over this hump? Do I just go into the garage and grab a 2×4 to hit myself over the head with it? That would be cheaper.
So here is my feel sorry for myself blog. There was bound to be 1 I guess. And I was ready to buy TeamFranco tank tops last night!
Stay tuned to twitter and Ig for updates I guess. Or Not!
Oh Franco don’t give up look at what you have accomplished you don’t want to undo all your hard work BC of this bump in the road. I don’t usually comment but I follow this as you are a true inspiration to people who either have a lot of weight to lose or a little to the people who don’t even care so much about the weight but wanting a healthier life for them self don’t look at it is you gained a couple pounds back but at how many more pounds healthier you are now from last year talk to a coach they can help get over this hump your doing great things here remember that!
Don’t give up!!!! You’re my #1 inspiration on my fitness journey – no matter what! Let’s do OTF next week. And thanks for always giving me something to read during my Thursday class, no matter how sad. xoxo
Don’t give up!! We are all rooting for you! You have inspired me in so many ways!!! Keep trying it will happen for you!!! I still want a Team Franco shirt! <3
Don’t ever give up!!! That’s not an option. Stop worrying about numbers and what you need to do by the end of the month. You’re just stressing yourself. Relax workout and rest. Then you will hit your goal!!