It seems like I always start a blog apologizing for not being here and trust me friends I am not that far from you. You can always check my Instagram and Twitter daily. I am always posting there. There you can make sure I am walking the walk! But I am sorry.
Sometimes when I am stuck at a weight I just don’t know what else to say. I am trying. I am working through it. I haven’t stopped. I am tweaking. I am playing mad scientist with my body. I am trying to give it what it needs and I am trying not to be stupid. I know that no matter what I can’t rush this process. Sometimes I have to sell that to myself.
So let me do my best to recap some things since the last time.
I guess I should just tell you that I am 302.4 lbs today. So that’s down about 6 pounds and yes I am floating around this god damn 300 number and I have been floating around it since August. And yes, it is extremely annoying. And yes I am trying to reel myself in. I am trying very hard.
Crabby and I played at the Trappe Tavern on St. Patrick’s Day and I knew that I was going to have to have something to eat and a few drinks. It’s tradition. And we don’t drink just Jameson. We drink $15 a shot Jameson. Middleton to be exact and usually for a special occasion, toast or of course St. Patty’s Day! Just one but special.
When Friday rolled around at Ott’s, I didn’t drink anything. I was trying not to add calories to my hard work. Saturday was a road trip to OCMD and honestly I didn’t go my usual overboard. I had one shot that was bought for me and 1 Orange crush that I didn’t finish. I just wasn’t into derailing myself and knew I was eating the calories so i didn’t want to go crazy.
Saturday I was 302.9 and Monday came in with 306.0 – Now I didn’t get upset on Monday because I figured it was a 2lb loss from the week before and a healthy loss. But in the end it is my pogo stick of a fight with my weight.
My workouts haven’t been that great. I feel soft. So I am going to push that a lot harder in the upcoming week. I need to give myself a set schedule for the week and just stick with it.
I am getting my water in. Every day since I last wrote you. No days off on that. I have been sick for the last few days so I have been drinking a lot of tea. I am okay with that. It’s good for you!
My friend Mike said something pretty interesting to me at the gym a few days ago. Mike also lost 100lbs in a year. (It took me a little longer). He told me that his friends told him that he was more fun fat. I have heard it from a few people and some of my band mates not too long ago. One of them made a joke that we didn’t get as many cold calls because I am skinny now. Funny. I am 1 pants size away from my freshman year in high school self. I am not so afraid of doing things and going places anymore. I am the most fun I have ever been. I just am not looking for my fun with booze or wings or pizza as much as I used to. And I have self control. I might slip. But I know how to get right back at it. People have no idea sometimes. I AM FUN DAMNIT!
Well i am sorry it’s nothing too exciting but it’s a check in none the less.
Love you guys!
Talk to you all soon!
Franco
I’ve never seen you NOT fun. Proud of you for maintaining for all this time! That is incredible! I know you aren’t getting the results you would like to see on the scale, but thank you for blogging and inspiring all of us to never give up on ourselves – internally or externally.