I know it’s been awhile. I am sorry. If you worry about me I am much easier tracked on Instagram. I have been in a funk for what seems a few months now and need to figure out how to snap out of it. I am working on it. I have become quite honestly what I was worried about the most. A see-saw in the weight loss struggle. Up/down. Up/down.
Today I weighed in at 322lbs. Okay so I started at 411. Not bad right. Well I was 303 in March. So…… What happened since then? What have I done differently? What have I shoved in my mouth? What workouts have I missed? Well first things first.
I am now 11 pounds from my 100lb weight loss goal so 311, I am going to have to chase you down again because I promised myself that I wouldn’t ever let you go in the other direction. I have let myself down. I feel embarrassed and it’s depressing.
Trying to save money, I cancelled my Orange Theory. $90 a month for 8 sessions isn’t bad if you look at it as paying $12 for an hour workout but when you add the other things you do… that was the first thing I cut. I was training with someone. She was giving me a great deal. Life happened to her… then life happened to me and then I guess i stopped getting the memos on when training was or my deal ran itself out. You kinda feel like you left work that was just starting to show on the table… So I have my unlimited boot camps still but feel no real sense of direction… and that’s not his fault because in the end I pay for boot camps and nothing else.
My food choices suck. In the summer the fruity, girlie drinks are harder for me to say no to and so the spiral continues.
I haven’t been taking my prescribed water pills like I am supposed to… and I am definitely not getting my water down. So you see, I do know what I am doing wrong. I have never lied to anyone reading or myself. Now I just have to get in my own head and reel myself in once and for all.
As I am writing this I am already working on a plan. I hope to put it into effect by this coming Monday! Hopefully by next weeks blog… and I promise no matter what to get one out there… I think that accountability that I used this for was missing and is needed again.
Don’t be shocked if my work outs change or I try new things. Change is good, your body needs change, I think I need change. I need a plan, and I need to stick to it.
I am not giving up. I am have t set new goals and I’ll attach a few merits to them and I will fight to get there.
Sometimes being honest with yourself is the worst feeling in the world. But I have tried really hard in the last 2.5 years to not make any excuses. My feelings, depression, boredom, don’t put things in my mouth….. my hands do…. I am ready to start tackling this with the self control I had when I started.
I wanted to tell you more about whats been going on with me but I’ll leave it here for now with just the weight loss stuff. Feel free to comment, share, email…. It’s all good. We are here for each other.
Time to fire up the team!
Thanks for reading.
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