It’s Thursday and here I am writing again. Maybe I should write a book. Maybe I should tell a story. I always figured that I would start with mine for whatever it’s worth, to learn how to do it. I think in the end I will probably stop writing here and figure out how to put it all into a book. And what I mean is taking my blog making a book out of it for prosperity and just literally going away. I don’t know.
I am feeling much better this week about everything. It’s definitely time to let go of some anger. I saw a meme the other day about Rudolph the red nose reindeer. It went along the lines that nobody wanted Him around until they needed him. And guess what. I am keeping check boxes. If Karma doesn’t get them, life will.
Let’s talk about the last couple days. On Friday night I put together a small trio gig that was a lot of fun. It was very well attended and definitely set a tone of this new sporting club that we played. Even more importantly I got to sing. Many songs because I wanted to. That made me happy. Saturday, Amber and I went to dinner with Baba and Gwen and then went to a comedy show for Brandon’s soccer team. Oh my God, most of it was so funny. It was a good night out with family and friends.
Sunday, I moved all my records and cleaned in the morning while Amber went and played Pokémon go with Brandon. Yes Brandon is the 26-year-old. He’s also the one getting married in a few weeks. We then started Christmas decorating. I pulled in the tree and Amber and I got the window together. We also strung some lights around the house just to be silly. I even have Alexa turning them on and off. – Probably not going to do outside this year. It’s just too much. We live on a dead-end street for god sake‘s. While it makes us happy, why run the electric.
I ate late on Friday night so I fasted into Saturday as well as Sunday. And by that I mean that I did my 16 hours off and eight hours on fast. I also really tried not to over drink alcohol and little by little the scale started moving again this week. I am in a swoosh for sure.
If you don’t know what a swoosh is. It’s that period where your body finally decides to get rid of some fat and weight. As of Monday morning I’d hit my next goal which was 65 Total pounds lost in 2018. I instantly reset my goal to another 5 pounds to get to 70 pounds lost in 2018., This morning I weighed in and I am at 68 pounds lost since 2018. 2 more pounds to crack 70 pounds this year. Yeah I’m ready to cry.
Here are the stats for anyone who gives a crap. And yes Gina I have a negative tone. 🙄🤷🏻♂️
In 1998 I was 550lbs
In 2002 I was 290lbs
In 2014 I was 412lbs
In the last 5 years I am down 145lbs
I am down 68lbs in 2018
I am down 6-7lbs since last week coming out of Thanksgiving and holidays part 1 (HOLY CRAP)
But who is keeping track?
Well on a side note., I did not get approved for my skin removal surgery. I kinda knew that was going to happen. But I kept a little hope. I guess I suck. Just another thing to worry about and fight over.
I’ll appeal it but the bad part is that I can’t have the surgery in January when it makes really good sense band schedule wise. So I might be just sucking up the pain and everything else till next winter. Usually this would send me into a funk but I’m okay. Got the news yesterday and just went about my day.
I’m gonna sign off this for this week and celebrate the highs of the week. Not much I can do about the lows so it’s best not to dwell on them too much.
I asked last week about Christmas traditions and zero people commented. I know at least 50 people read my blog…. sooo I guess not a damn soul has any yearly family holiday traditions.
Hahahahahahha ok so family traditions…..we really don’t have any specifically. Obviously huge parenting fail. We go with the flow each holiday. And we try something new each year. So really our tradition lately has been just being peaceful. And finding a family to donate from my art classes to. Other than that, it’s just how much time can I spend in my pj’s. YOU ARE KILLING IT! So proud of all you’ve accomplished personally and with this journey. You’ve got this! Forgiveness and letting go is where I really need to put some serious work in. Btw….I better be getting a freaking whoosh! Stalled for a few days now. FTW