Wednesday. It’s weigh in day. Moment of truth day.
Last week I was so stoked cause I dropped 6 pounds. This week 3 came back but my body fat dropped a little more again. I’ll post the screen shots because maybe someone out there reading will make some sense of things for me. I am glad that I didn’t go to my cardio session this morning because I am cranky!
So I put in my measurements and weight and this was the pop up that I got.
Now most people who count macros and diet that way would be through the moon for this screen because it means more carbs and opens up a whole new world of things to eat and much easier to manage than a completely low-carb life but as someone with crazy goals and things he needs to do to better his life, losing another 40-50 pounds is all I think about I guess. It’s a almost as bad as death chasing me in my head. It might actually be the same damn thing. But now I actually might have to put on a few pounds safely so that I can re-jump start my broken ass metabolism.
A sane Franco would look at the first photo up top and tell himself that hey dude… you lost 9 pounds this month, decreased your body fat. You are working hard. Just keep doing your thing. But I haven’t been sane in a long time. I keep hearing that plastic surgeon in my ear telling me, hey. congrats on losing 90lbs, but come back and see me when you loose another 50 and we’ll get you rolling.
Yesterday I spent some time talking to one of the coaches at the gym who I admire because he really lives and breathes what he is selling and lifestyle wise. It wasn’t a long conversation but he thinks I probably do way too much cardio. And that in the end I should be lifting and have a better day to day weight program to build lean mass to use as fat blasters. Kinda knew that but really don’t have the $1100 for the 20 sessions to really work it out with him. And I thought about what corners I could cut all night and I was able to free up $90 a month. So the old me would have skipped the gym this morning (and yeah I did) and head to Dunkin Donuts and a few doors down is Krispy Kreme and I would just give in. (But I didn’t.)
Instead I started writing this and I went through a check list in my head. I watched this video that was posted on the Avatar site about when to reverse diet.
Then I just bit the bullet because I can’t afford a person trainer to kick my ass right now. So as usual I have to listen to my smarter friends advice. Research what I can and do my best. I switched my Avatar Nutrition account to a “Conservative Reverse Diet” where it say if I follow the guidelines I will only gain up to 1.6lbs a week while fixing and re-igniting my metabolism. Gaining weight on purpose? YUK! But I will increase my weight lifting, reps and do my best I guess. I can’t really let myself go less then 2000 calories a day and that’s where I was headed.
This is what it gave me.
Now I chose to have higher carbs and fats on the weekend for the band, travel and to just have a little bit of life. It’s easier for me to derail then too so this helps me stay on track.
I guess I will give it a few weeks and see what happens. I am trying to not let the scale rule my world and this isn’t just a scale thing since it takes body fat into consideration as well.
I am bumming. I work hard. I know that. I just wish I got the outcome that I wanted for all my hard work. I’ve been digging myself out of a hole since November and can’t seem to get out of it.
A plan will come to me. Something has to give.
And to think all I wanted to do was write about my bench press PR from last week and now that doesn’t really matter.
Thanks for reading.
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