Well it’s been two weeks and I got yelled at by a friend because I didn’t write and I sometimes feel like a broke record. What I want to do. What I want to accomplish. What I hope I’ll do. Sometimes you fall short. Sometimes things just are moving along an you don’t have anything to say. Yeah, I know, it’s hard to fathom me, not having anything to say. But it happens. So let me quickly catch you up on my fitness journey and then you can decide if you want to check out of the rest of the garbage that I might or might not spew. I haven’t decided what I’ll tell you other then it’s Thursday, I am supposed to write and I opened my notepad and got to work here.
To get where I am today, and I mean since the last time I wrote anything here. A few things it changed. We did a survey at the gym to see what the class members wanted out of their classes. Generally people want to lose weight and tone up. That always seems to be a common thread. Very few people go to the wanting to gain weight and get bigger, but trust me it happens too. So some of the classes will be changing but one of the comments that came through was gym sponsored weight loss challenge. Well it is not fair to pick me versus a little twig of a girl, so the best way to go about it is a fat loss challenge where the winner is someone lost the biggest percentage of body fat. Everyone who wanted to enter put up $20 in the winner will take all. It starts tomorrow and runs until memorial day weekend. So of course I have to play along and it first I did not want to. But I weighed in, I did my body fat scan a few days ago to give me a few days of a jumpstart.
My coach changed up my strength training program. So I have been working hard on that all week. This kind of change is okay with me. It’s definitely hitting my muscle groups in different directions, and I need that. So while I was frustrated a bit last week, I got up Monday morning and have been walking the walk ever since. No cheating. I’ve stuck to my meal plan. I will greatly curb my drinking this weekend and stick as closely to my macros as possible. I am heading on the road Saturday which of course the three hours back-and-forth to Ocean City Maryland are always the worst. But I will make this weekend my bitch. I don’t know if I can actually win the competition, but it sure as hell won’t be from lack of trying.
When I weighed in this morning, I finally broke through a small plateau, barely. But I broke through either way. I went back into my tracking app and looked to see where my weight is, I am up 5 pounds from this time last year. So I am okay. I am not crazy off. I wanted to be where I was at the end of June 2017, at the end of June 2018, That’s when I hurt myself. And we’ll go from there. I will lose 50lbs in 2018. I will not let myself down. I will try my damnest. And of course I am going to Dottie and Ken’s Saturday night! FML!
Well things have been a little emotional lately. I have known for a long time that I have to incorporate some change into my professional life. I hate change and no matter how much I tell myself that change is good. Change is scary. Change hurts feels when you take a lot of people a long for a ride. It’s also a burden to carry when you are solely responsible for the livelihood of others because they don’t ever want to step up and claim some of that responsibility themselves. It gets very easy to let others worry about things as long as you don’t have to. I’ve never, ever had that luxury. At the same time, I need to be happy and right now I am not. I need my professional life to be fun. I put enough stress on myself with other things quite honestly. So I am working to make a change and I don’t know at this point if it will be a popular decision but I know deep down inside my heart that while it might not pay off for awhile that it’s the best thing for me and the whole. So we’ll see. I know it’s a little cryptic for some of you reading but it is what it is. I’ll be able to talk about it soon enough. I am out of options.
Well I am gonna sign off and head into the kitchen and cry over my 4 ounces of lean ground beef and no carbs for lunch.
Hey fuckers! I hope you are all doing well. Thank you for reading!