Archives for January 2016

What happens when twenty four inches of snow are dumped on you, your work is canceled and you’re stuck in the house. Well for someone’s been dieting for two years dance is pretty simple, You eat everything in sight. I lost the fight for couple days can Got on the scale at almost 305 pounds on Monday morning.  I was able to recover and pull it back to where it needed to be and under 300lbs and pretty much get myself a little under last weeks weight in at 298.7.  Not bad.  Not great.  I am struggling because after 2-3 weeks of taco meet and chicken I am over it.  And I am sorry, no matter how you dress it.  It’s still chicken. You can only have so much lean ground meat a week too so I am just a little frustrated even though I should be walking on cloud 9 finally getting under 300 and kinda staying there.  But then there is stress.  And stress wants me to eat everything in sight.  And before your head starts spinning, I am not much of an over eater.  I am more of a..  I want Cheetos, Mountain Dew and a king size Twix eater.

I did Orange Theory on Monday and Tuesday this week because I had to use them before my billing cycle ended.  I went to iDominate classes Tuesday and Wednesday as well as bootcamps Monday and Wednesday.  I really miss working out my body in parts. A much as I want to hire a new trainer, I  have been waiting for last weeks “Job interview” call back and don’t want to start something that I might not be able to finish.  So now it’s a waiting game.  I have 13lbs to my next goal.  I wanted to hit is for my birthday so badly but my birthday is in 11 days and I am not sure that will happen.  I have either I’m never made realistic goals along this journey or just suck. I think any asshole will the lose it app (not that I’m calling anyone asshole except myself) should be able to follow along and lose 2 pounds a week. I guess this is one of those weeks where I just feel bummed out.

Not working this past weekend, not hearing back from last weeks job interview, and just day-to-day stress has got me bummed out for sure. I went to the range on Tuesday to shoot a little bit and in left in a half hour frustrated as well. I am not sure how to really snap out of it.

I’m going to see Bruce Springsteen on Sunday in Newark and for the first time a long time I am not afraid of my seats. I guess that should be a moral victory for sure.  I should be more excited, but I am not. I am not sure why I am feeling this way right now.

I’ll do my best to stay out of my own head, and keep pushing forward. I did not want to skip this weeks blog post. But don’t really have much to say this point.

I hope everyone has a great week  – For more updates make sure you’re following me on Twitter and Instagram and I’ll talk to everyone soon.

Thanks for being here.

Franco

Well I thought that when I hit 2 years of doing this I would make a big fan fare but that wasn’t really in the cards.   I did go to Franklin Mills Mall that morning and take a nice long walk like I did the very first day.  I must’ve gotten there a little later because most of my little old people were going already, but those that were there were definitely giving me funny looks because they’ve I Haven’t seen me in a while and probably saw me 30 pounds ago.  I did post a video about that so you can check that out here.

So where have I been? I am still doing my thing. I am still religiously trying if it fits your macros six days a week. I know in my heart that I need to try for seven. The truth is but I think I have exhausted all the trickster up my sleeve. I’ve been teetering around 305 for over nine months. I’ve got under 300 pounds for a few days and also back up to 315/316 for a few days.  For my own mental well-being, I need to get myself under 300 for good. Nine know that I’ve been told that I should enjoy the fact that I’ve taken off hundred pounds and That off but with all the that I do, all the curbing my eating that I do, I really wish that I could see better results. I really do miss working out all my body parts like I was this past summer with the trainer. I do not think with the band being in it’s slow season that I can afford being watched 3x a week so I am not sure what to do.  I thought that maybe strength training would be a cheaper alternative, But I am just afraid of getting hurt. So I am not really sure what to do. Here we are again. Stop rolling your eyes.

I weighed in at 305 today. Ironically enough on New Year’s Day I was 301. I have been going up-and-down for the past 15 days around the same 5 pounds. That is driving me bat shit crazy. Amber is also doing macros and is doing okay with it. It makes eating around the house much easier and with Brett going back to school tomorrow, It will be even easier. Her knee has been acting up so she has not been able to work out so a bigger effort needs to be made in the kitchen. I learned that the hard way when I broke my elbow.

I don’t think that people realize the amount of discipline that you have have when you meal prep a few days in advance. It might seem like a great idea because all your food is ready for you you also have to realize that you’re eating the same shit a few times a day to get to your macros. And more so not waste food and money. I think this will be much easier for me if I ever get an actual day job. And I am trying. I might actually do even better at this structural he if I had a job and not such a flexible schedule. The biggest challenge we’ll be getting my workouts in early morning and the evenings. But I promised myself along time ago that I would not stop. And I won’t.

I am going to reach out to a few people to see what coaching and some training would cost. I think is good to add team members once in a while to only make yourself stronger and more knowledgeable.  I am still going to Orange Theory fitness two times a week.  That cost a little bit more than most things, so if I have to cut that out of my routine and just hit a treadmill, I will. I hope that it does not come down to that. But it is $95 a month that I would have to play with.  A lot of my friends Gym jump – that is not really me. But sometimes at my gym, the people with the knowledge are very busy and I always feel like I am bothering them. Sometimes my questions are answered but are so rushed that I don’t understand them. So it’s good to add people to Team Franco because sometimes takes an army.  And a lot more information that my little pea brain has.

The new year came and went. The band had a wedding on New Year’s Eve where the bride’s mom who I will put it out there suffers from MS, looked at me when I went to line them up for introductions and said “it’s about time you lost a lot of weight, good for you”.  On most nights that would’ve probably triggered some evil inside me but I was completely in my new tuxedo, I was feeling pretty good. No I was not drinking. People are going to do, Say, I think what they want. People are going to see pictures on Facebook or Instagram of me at the gym everyday and say they wish they had tile all the time I do to be in the gym. But the truth is no matter what you have to make the time. The truth is even with time you have to put in the work. The truth is that the gym time is great for your body, but 90% of the work really happens in the kitchen and his what you put in your mouth. I never realized that as much as I do now.

So in regards to operation 30, we have 20 pounds to go. I will get there. Honestly in my head, I have no choice.  I will not back down. I really can’t remember what 285 pounds on my body feels like or looks like. I’ll be 45 in a few weeks.  It’s time to see what I can do

Many of you guys reading been here since day one and I really appreciate it. Even if you’ve never written me, or posted into my blog, I know just by the hits on the website, That somebody other than my mother is reading.  Even my haters come back enough that they are now fans.  I know more people around me are making changes and that is an awesome thing.

I promise to try and write every week again, I just feel that sometimes when I don’t have a win on the scale that I feel embarrassed. I feel like I let myself down and you guys too. I know that is not the case. I went to the Flyers game Wednesday night and fit in the hundred level seats just fine. That should be an non-scale victory to tell everyone.  I have been going to the shooting range a few times a week for stress relief. I will tell you more about that next week since this is dragging on a little more and I thought it was today.

I hope this finds everyone well, And I promise more updates in the future. Let’s get under 300 and we will go from there. I have been at this point before, I will be at this type of plateau again and we will kick its ass.

Feel the love!

Franco