There is no hiding it when I get on the struggle bus. And I am on the struggle bus. The frustration has completely set in and the candy aisle in Wawa is harder and harder to resist. Of course they put the potato chips at the end of the candy aisle now so it’s like 1 stop shop.
Am I eating too much? Chances are even with counting macros, I am not eating enough. I haven’t lost any weight since October yet my energy level is higher than ever. So what gives? I don’t know. Counting Macros and eating within them might not be the thing for me. I can hit the protein and the fat… get close to the fiber but getting the Carbs to where they need to be without going crazy with junk is NOT easy whatsoever. I have been saying it here for weeks that I need help and I found a nutritionist at the NE Aquatic and Racquet Club that takes my insurance and is supposed to be very good. So I have an appointment with her tomorrow. Maybe she can help me break through this plateau. At 328lbs. I’d like to be under 300 for memorial day. I don’t think it’s an unrealistic goal and I’d do what she said to get there. Once I know what I am doing there, I’ll tell you more.
So weight wise and mood wise you pretty much know where I stand I even got this text from the trainer that is doing a 45 day challenge that I signed up for.
“You lost weight but your inches and body fat stayed about the same”
So if that didn’t drive a nail into the emotional coffin today. I fought a cold for most of this week. And Sunday I felt so crappy that I decided that since I wasn’t going to hit my fuel goal that I was taking the Nike Fuelband off after 413 straight days of hitting my goal. I am now a Pebble Watch wearing MoFo. It sucked on Sunday. I was bumming about it. But today I feel revealed. Giving your body a rest day didn’t happen when you had to get your fuel points. I know that my walks aren’t burning many calories anymore. It doesn’t get my heart rate up like it used to. But it’s a routine for me. It’s an hour I spend moving rather than sitting in my recliner talking to you on here (lol). So after a few days. I am glad I took the Fuel band off. I can always put it on and start over if I start slacking. But I don’t think I am going to.
So I am going to stop there with the beating myself up because honestly, I am stronger than that. I’ll figure this out. I am not giving up.
Let’s talk about a couple good things then.
Strength training is going well. Tonight is the final night of the first month. I have seen gains. I have gone from a 135 Squat to a 200lb one. Tonight I’d like to go 225. We shall see. That’s roughly 75% of my body weight and I should be able to pull at least 1 nice clean, good formed one.
Okay. I did a soft launch of my new website, Phillyfun.com – It’s a jump site to all thing Franco! Check it out. I have been doing a little re-branding lately and love it. I am sure it’s a stronger confidence and a new fire that’s inside me to succeed even more.
I have to go. Hope everyone has a great weekend. Thanks for reading. I am here if you need me. Keep pushing. Keep moving forward. Keep an eye out on my twitter. I’ll post some stuff tomorrow after my doctors appointment.