So Uncomfortably Numb

72lb+ weight loss, Low Carb, Musician. Photographer. IG Junkie. Ink Addict. Gym Rat. Master of the Dark Arts.

Archives for February 2014

If I Could Make a Deal With God…..

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If I only could…..

I was so excited last week.  And then I got sick.  And even with snot running down my face..  I pushed myself and my walks more and more.  I ended the week in a great position….  Walked almost 17 miles last week…  then I step on the scale and nothing.

So I what do you do.  I lost 6 pounds last week.  If I lose 12 pounds a month, that is still pretty amazing right?  I’ve hit my Nike goal almost 45 days in a row…. Maybe I should just say fuck it and go to KFC for lunch.  I have been dying for some fried skin.  Crunchy.

No that’s not my style.  Well it could be…  But it won’t be.  I don’t think I ate enough last week.  Even at 2300 calories I wasn’t getting close to 2000 most days.  I did try to keep my protein up every day.  Must not have been enough.  So I’ll tweak this….  tweak that..  i am going to try and walk 4 miles a day starting tonight…  And hit 20 miles by Friday.  I can do it.

So with that.. I’ll sign off today.  I am not feeling all that motivating….  Hopefully I can put this sickness inside me to rest soon and my body will adjust itself and I can get back on track.

Have a great week everyone!

Keep Running Up that Hill…

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IMG_0689How do you get over a plateau? You have to work even harder. You have to push through heart ache. Look I was pissed last week when I didn’t hit my goal. I was so upset. I had walked 17 miles that week. That’s something that I can’t even fathom myself doing 2 months ago. I hate to walk. Everything on my body hurts when I walk. But I’ve been dancing more on stage.. Parking further and further in the parking lot and just doing my best to not only meet my goals but to crush them too. CRUSH THEM!. And I have been crushing them. It’s just sometimes the scale doesn’t show it.

I noticed this weekend that I was already two notches on my belt from where I was at christmas time. All day I kept thinking to myself.. I have to put an old tuxedo on when I get home and see if it fits me. Well.. It did. And it was awesome. The tuxedo I work 18 months ago that was tight and the buttons kept breaking fit and looked great on me. (well great for me anyone). I have to go get it cleaned and get buttons put back on but I will be looking so much better this weekend at the wedding the bands playing. I CAN”T WAIT!. I am so excited. I had to buy a new tux this summer and its solo big. I can’t wait to retire it.IMG_0697

So many staying the same weight last weekend wasn’t so bad. My body is changing. I am determined.

I met the morning radio guy for Wired 96.5, Chunky and his girlfriend Kristin this past weekend with the band. He was at Parx for a radio promo with us. I thought it was funny… I fought the name Bigg Romeo in the beginning and couldn’t fathom a Dj wanted to call himself Chunky. He was so, so nice and had one of the smiles that makes you want to go to the bar and do shot after shot with him. I learned that he’s lost 180 pounds in the past year from just changing what he eats. That floored me. It also motivated me. I hope to talk to him this week and see what worked for him and hopefully draw a little more information. Shit, Maybe I’ll even get booked on his show when I hit my 100 pound goal.

IMG_0672Well I know what you are thinking. Did you lose any friggin weight this week? And I almost cried on the scale. I am down another 6ish pounds… Down to 380… If you’ve been reading along you know I started at 411 lbs on January 6th. So that’s 30 pounds since then and 20 more till I get a new tattoo. Any ideas on what I should get? Send them through.

It’s presidents day. Got up. Hit a bunch of errands and did 2 loops of Franklin Mills. 3.5 miles. I feel pretty good too. Got a few more Isopure protein drinks and kick started this next week with a bang. Next goal. Get to 375lbs.

Oh and I also took the tux to the cleaners. Going to spread my blog and twitter around a little this week. It’s time. I can do this. I was afraid I’d fail but I don’t really have that option anymore.

I’ll check back here in a few days and let you know how things are. I think a week is too long to remember things I want to put down here.

Family and Close friends are with me. I can’t lose.

Hitting the Wall

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So here we are again, celebrated my birthday on Saturday had a really good time.  This week I have upped my fitness even more than ever. But unfortunately that didn’t show on the scale. I did however 19 anyway. I was exactly the same way as I was last week. So now I am stuck at 23.5 pounds lost since January 6, 2014.  I am walking at least 2 or 3 miles every day without any breaks. I am consistently under my calorie intake.  I am doing my best with Smartfood decisions. I just get very hungry later in the evening.  So to say that I am a little frustrated is putting it mildly.

So out of five weeks I’ve stayed the same two of the five weeks. So now what do I do?

I just keep moving forward. What else is there to do? I will watch what I eat try to balance my calories and keep working out. I was going to add weights this week but I think I’ll wait till I lose one more week. By then most of the New Year’s resolution crazy people at the gym will have moved on.

Are you that I can’t give you any more uplifting words of advice today. This week is just going to start a little bit on the  forblah side me. But I will turn around. I always do.  It’s all you can do.

So how do I bust out of this plateau?

 

Mixed

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Well it’s been a week and we’ll get to it…   I lost six pounds since last week for a total of 23.5 pounds.  4 full weeks down.  Not bad and I am very happy. I am walking anywhere from 2 – almost 4 miles every day.  I am hitting my Nike Fuel goal of 2500 every day.  Some days are harder than others but I hit that goal and work towards it all day long. I am getting pretty comfortable with the walking.  It seems to be working.  I was going to add weights and what not after a month but maybe next week.

I find myself working really hard at this.  I get frustrated.  I hate going into Wawa’s and store.  I WANT CHOCOLATE!  I want salty potato chips.
I didn’t even do a cheat day this week because there just wasn’t anything I wanted and it really wasn’t worth it in the end.  But it’s been lots and lots of chicken.  A very small side and that’s it for dinner.  Lots and lots of protein…  natural peanut butter and eggs.

So I don’t really have much to report other than that.  I walk.  Watch every little thing I put into my mouth and I work.  Next day repeat.

I turn 43 on Saturday!