I am going to get back on track this weekend guess what it’s Thursday. Don’t know what the weekend has in store for me so I wanted to make sure that I push something thing out there into the inter-webs before the holiday.
Easter was always an amazing time for my family. I don’t know why. There are so many fucked up stories that come with Easter at my house but for some reason it was always a good time.
For example, my house in Brigantine backed up to a golf course so in my infinite wisdom one year in grade school, I decided I was going to go through all the weeds and grab as many golf balls and bags of them as I could so like at sell them to the golfers five for a dollar. Sounded like a good thing. Until I was incredibly covered and poison Ivy and my face and body swelled up like crazy.
Another time on the way to the shore my father pulled over in the station wagon and the next thing you know there was a baby lamb in the back of the car. I am pretty sure that my sister and I thought it was a new pet until the next day when it was hanging in the garage skinned by the local butcher. I didn’t go in that garage for weeks. I definitely wasn’t eating any meat in sauce that I didn’t know exactly what it was.
I think my absolute favorite memory is the fact that my father realized it probably giving me candy was not a good idea so as we almost hit middle school we got presents. Nothing crazy just something from the Easter bunny. And when you’re my sister and I got the most amazing boom boxes. It was a gift that I used every day for over 15 years. It lasted me all the way through college and I honestly wish I had one today. This is what it look like. And yes I know they are on eBay. I just can’t bring myself to do it.
Look at this bad ass boombox.
I am disappearing for a few days. It’s time to refocus and re-connect. I have let some anger get the best of me over the last few days but I will come back on Monday with the eye of the tiger. I booked a trip to Nashville in the middle of July so, then I’m going to go straight to July 14th kicking ass and taking names!
There will most likely be a purging. Things that trigger me, people that Trigger…. There will also be a purging in the drawers as I continue to flip wardrobe over and promising myself to never let the sizing on my clothes get any bigger than they are now. This is where I want to be. Anything more comes off that is OK. But this is a good comfortable place for me.
People think I am nuts but little by little I am getting rid of all my 2X and my XL T-shirts that look like dresses on me. I don’t want them. I don’t want to have any kind of crutch to go back to. I think it’s that stuff starts getting tight then a switch will go off of my head that I better get my shit together. And I will.
It sucks because I have these buy me brunch and to write love on her arm shirts that I absolutely love and they are not cheap that I have to replace. Maybe I will just wait till Black Friday when they give out the best coupon yet.
Guess what? On Sunday Amber and I put the bikes on my car and decided we are going for wine slushy’s in new hope. I looked at the map of the Delaware canal path and picked a place to park.
7 miles in, a wine slushy or two, 7 miles out. I get to the wine shop and the slushy machine wasn’t turned on early enough and it’s like going to 7-Eleven and you can’t get a Slurpee because the stuff isn’t cold yet. Talk about wanting to cry. Even worse knowing that I had to ride my bike seven more miles back to my car. We did it. The last four or 5 miles really kind of sucked. But we did it. We will do it again. So I wanted to do 20 miles on the bike last week I ended up with 32. This week I have not even gotten one in yet. The weather has not cooperated.
When we got home, I got ready for a shower and decided to weigh myself, and I was at my absolute lowest. .5lbs away from a new goal. I kind of figured that I was dehydrated and the next day it spiked about 3 pounds and it’s been there All week so now I am at the lower end of the goal up and down 3 pounds. Something will give and I will duck below that 250 mark soon or later.
So honestly I have a lot of things floating in my head that I will have to piece together so I won’t bother anyone here. I think there’s a pretty good catch-up for the week. I hope this finds everybody well.
Remember in the spirit of Easter we can be reborn.
Happy Easter. Happy Passover.
Keep kicking ass.
Feel the love.