Lots of things to touchdown on briefly this week. Please forgive the hodgepodge as we go forward.
Of course another Bigg Romeo wedding in the pouring rain on Friday, I literally thought that I was going to get stuck in the swamps of jersey like Bruce Springsteen sings. Although stressful to set up, the wedding ended up perfect. I had a good time and looked like everyone else did as well. Saturday, Got me into the gym for a rare weekend appearance and then I headed to Ventnor, New Jersey to take photographs. I got to see my cousin Frankie briefly and then headed to Atlantic City to play with the band. Once that show was over most of us went on vacation. This is the first year in a while that I did not have anything planned out of state, well I am going to New York on Saturday. I’m not sure if that counts.
Sunday night I was very restless as early Monday morning we headed to Center City for an appointment with the University of Penn plastic surgery department. It only makes sense that my greatest successes have been PENN related when it comes to my health. The doctor thinks that I can benefit greatly from having skin reduction surgery on my legs. I not only would have some very cool scars down my legs, but also in my groin area. We’ve started the process again with the insurance companies, I know they will deny me at the gate because they always do, so it’s basically bucking down and preparing for a fight. 2 ½ years ago they approved one leg, so let’s see if we can get both approved. I have to be honest with the whole idea scared the living shit out of me. But as far as I have come, there is no reason for me to have pain from the skin on my legs banging down on my body. As much as I like the size 36 jeans, they are more of a medical device than anything else at this point. The doctor was very nice and so was his entire staff. We did not get into too many questions because I could tell that the doctor figures that that is something to do once we do get approval. And I get it. He didn’t say that the operation would take 3 ½ to 4 hours. For the time being, the one thing he did say was that my legs were muscular, and that would help. I am going to continue to push my leg workouts for the next couple months until this all sorts itself out. It also gives me greater mental clarity to do my best to stay on the program. To keep pushing harder.
Last night I did the small pick up gig with Crabby, Baba and Donnie from Fish Out of Water. I got to sing 90% of the night and it was great. One of the nicest things came from my host, who told me that when she comes to see the band she loves it when I sing more than anything. That means a lot to me. Even being the boss sometimes not everything is in my control. Sometimes when I do what’s best for the team, it sucks for me. It was nice to make a couple extra bucks to be able to use this upcoming weekend in New York. I can’t wait to go see Harry Potter and the Cursed Child. I am very glad that I bought those tickets for Ambers birthday in the middle of the summer or else I probably would not have been able to pull off something this good at this time. Even with my legit day job now. The lack of gigs on the weekends still has me playing catch up to a lot of things. That’s okay though because I always seem to find a way. Now I am very much looking forward to Playing with my friend Anthony at the end of the month. Maybe these little side jobs or what will keep me happy and motivated musically. They liked what we did so much last night that they are going to hire us for another Company event as well. It’ll be a good way to end the new year.
Just so you know I’ve been hitting the gym hard, I put a new program together for myself and have been working it. Definitely feel a little stronger. I don’t think many people realize that most of my working out is while I am fasting. So I don’t quite understand why people say that they have to eat so much before they workout. I guess everyone is different. I also think that it’s very mental.
Earlier this week I posted a bunch of stuff on Facebook half joking around. There was a lot of comments about unanswered prayers. I think what I posted was something along the lines that sometimes unanswered prayers are the best prayers. The reason I posted that was because there is a Garth Brooks song by that name, and the lyric goes something like, “sometimes I am thank God for unanswered prayers, remember when you’re talking to the man upstairs, just because he doesn’t answer doesn’t mean he don’t care, some of God’s greatest gifts are unanswered prayers.” And while I can references for a lot of things in my life right now. Think about it. That girl you really wanted years ago, and you see her now and she’s an absolute train wreck. That guy you wanted to be the father of your children, has four of them with three different mothers and is a dead beat to all of them. Not getting approval with the surgeon who had an absolute horrible Office Manner, just might be one as well because I like the surgeon I met with Monday that much more. Unanswered prayers.
So I am down 2 pounds from last week. I was hoping for a bigger swoosh but 2 pounds is fantastic. I am 2 pounds from breaking another goal area. I think even with the holidays coming I should get to roughly 70 to 75 pounds lost in 2018. Today I am sitting in about 63 pounds. If I’m going to have surgery early in the New Year’s then I need to get down as low as I possibly can to get maximum benefits of the surgery as well as to just be fucking healthy.
Guess what also happened over the last couple weeks that I forgot to mention, I went from morbidly obese to just plain old every day McDonald’s French fry eating, Dunkin’ Donuts drinking obese. I’m pretty sure I am only three or four BMI points away from just being every day Wawa overweight. I absolutely can’t wait to be overweight. Fuck the world.
I hope that this finds everybody well. I will probably disappear for a week or two to enjoy Thanksgiving. But I promise I’ll be back soon thereafter with a new blog. As always you can keep up with my day to day fun on IG, Snap (@egophilly) and Twitter.
As I juggle my work emails and writing today, I’m sitting in my living room covered in dog, and life is good.
This Thanksgiving I am thankful to wake up every morning. I have a great family and support system and even the question marks in my life always find a way of working themselves out. It might not always be easy. Who I kidding it’s never easy. But we will push forward.
Keep the faith,