I just realized that I have not written in a long time. And I do know why. The biggest reason is because I suck. Yeah, right now you’re already thinking don’t be so hard on yourself Franco. Look how far you’ve come. Don’t worry you got this. The truth is at this point I think I have to start over completely.
The website that I have been using to work My Macros because I really can’t afford to coach is big on compliance and science. Amber and I have had conversations about macros etc. because she does not think they work for me. Truthfully it’s all on how you look at things. Flexible dieting works for many people. It should work for me. There is a science behind it. When I wanted to go to Disney 20 pounds lighter I made it happen. I work the macros and hit my goal. In the end no matter how you slice it you still have a total number of calories that you’re going to eat on a daily basis. Because of my weight loss surgery years ago no matter what I should eat more protein than anything else. If you look at it one way I have been completely rewired and that’s what my wiring needs. It’s also what bodybuilders and athletes need as well. In the end it’s all about science. It will always be calories in versus calories out.
I have tried moderation. Eating in moderation does not work for me. My level of self-control three years ago is not what it is today. I am incredibly worse and easily distracted by myself and those around me. I do not have the self-control I had when I started. And I have to stop beating myself up over it.
It comes down to something very simple. In the end, I do not want to buy bigger clothes anymore. I want to buy smaller clothes or stay in the clothes that I have but I am not getting bigger.
So it’s time to re-commit. On Monday morning I’m going to get up, weigh myself, take a tape measure out and measure my arms, hips, waist, legs and torso.
I will start with a minimal cleanse, and a commitment to Whole Foods for 10 days. No sugar, no flour, no junk. I will drag my ass to the gym as much as possible and from whatever I weigh in Monday my goals will be that many pounds to get under 300 again. Once I get to that goal, then the next one will be to get to 275 so I can go back to that plastic surgeon and tell him to kiss my ass!
I just turned 46 a few days ago so maybe I can get this done before I hit 50. Who knows!
Trying to be complacent with my macros is hard. I am like a little miser all day long making sure I don’t go crazy early on so that I have stuff at night when I know that I’m always freaking hungry.
But the program flat out asks did you follow your macros this week. It cannot adjust or change if you haven’t been following what you’re supposed to be falling. And that is the kicker for me because I am awesome during the week and then I get to the weekend and have a hard time controlling myself, my social eating and drinking and just cravings in general. I know that I can’t do a 1500 cal diet anymore. I just don’t have it in me and it is not enough food to run my body. So trying to find that magic number where my body is burning calories and I am happy, and more importantly my body is happy with what I give it.
My birthday came and went and while it was a nice birthday I realize that this is not getting any easier. I am having a harder and harder time getting motivated for workouts, trying to figure out what workouts to do, and just staying on track. Summer is coming and I would love to make it my best summer yet and I definitely don’t want people looking at me and thinking I put all the way back on again. I would like to at least look athletic with some muscle tone, and some muscle definition.
So my friends thank you for reading, thank you for all the birthday wishes on all social media platforms, thank you for all the love.
Here we go again.
I will try and make sure to write next week to let you know what the weigh in was and what my new goals are. If you’re reading please make sure you follow on Instagram and Twitter because you will be updated there regularly.
Here is a little video I shot yesterday for Valentines Day to test out my birthday present!