The last few weeks have gone by pretty fast. When you have a plan and program no matter what you have going on in your life you have to go and do what you have to do. It’s just that simple. Unless your body is screaming for a break.. If it’s Tuesday and you have legs to do on your coaches schedule there is no, well I don’t feel like it. You have to do legs or it throws off the rest of the weeks program. So with that, I’ve don’t pretty good. I have not missed a workout in almost 6 full weeks.
I am in the middle of week six. And it’s very hard for me to tell any progress really. The scale isn’t really the what I am competing against. I guess if it was I’d just do cardio for hours and something would. I guess when the gym gets its cardio section up and running I am gonna get up and go do some fasted cardio in the morning but for right now I just do a few HIIT classes a week and lift weights. I like weights. I lift them up and I put them down. Fucking weights. Over and over again. But the scale dipped into 310lb for a day or two and once I got back to training it went back to the 311’s. WHAT THE FUCK! It’s been two weeks in this range. Up and down in a 3 pounds range.
I posted this on FB …. If you’ve been criticizing yourself for years and it hasn’t worked, try accepting yourself and see what happens. I get it but holy shit. Sometimes even when I set a reasonable goal and work my butt off to get to it… how come I cant? I wanted to be under 310 by Memorial Day. Really wanted to be under 300 but didn’t want to put that much pressure on myself so I decided on a modest goal and still fall a little flat but today weighted in at 309.9 – It’s close but I’ll take it and stay off the scale now till Monday. Fuck that scale.
I went to the barber yesterday and he was so amazed by how good I look, he was funny, “dude you look good” he said. How much more do you want to lose. I thought it was sweet and funny and we talked about how I get judged on stage every weekend and sometimes I feel in the gym too because of my weight, but little do they know I’ve already lost 100 pounds & have changed my entire life around. People just suck anymore and honestly though, anyone reading knows I’d talk to anyone about it. But it’s easier to throw glances across a bar then to actually talk to someone.
It seems that I am at a constantly finding myself at a cross road. Lots of thinking going on in my head. Sometimes so much that sleep is tough. I seem to be cranky more and I should be happy. I have people who love me, I have lost 32 pounds since the new year and it should be a pretty good summer. Are we out of the woods yet?
No dream car yet but soon I hope. These car dealers all suck.
Yesterday was a scheduled cardio day and I woke up to a text that class was cancelled. So I got up, ate and went and did my own.
250 Meter on the Rower
30 Second Rope Slams
5 minutes on the elliptical
20 Sit ups
20 wall balls
As many as possible for 30 minutes. I worked myself into my own little sweat. But I did it.
I am loved and found a good gym family again. Truth is we are all a little lost but we’ll pull it together helping each other. One of my coaches is there with me 5 days a week at 10am and she could just tell me to go to hell cause I have 5 other days of programming now from coach Jason and she is always reworking her classes to keep me moving, interested and not hurting or overworking my muscles. Some people wouldn’t give a shit. But not she-hulk. She is always badgering me to keep pushing. They do care at Back to Basics where I’ve been hiding since the end of February. The gym isn’t perfect. It’s changing. And I’ve helped change it a little and market it some but I think the average joe needs more classes and recently they’ve cut a bunch. I know they need more members and I am going to be a on a mission to get people to work out with me once they get the gym looking and operating like they should. And no I am not on the staff, although I’ll be glad to work a few hours behind the desk and do my work. It just easy to care about a place and people who care about you.
Well I have a workout at 10 and it’s already after 9 so I guess I’ll wrap things up with my Memorial Day run down….
Since January 1st I am down 32 Pounds. I have lost a total of 101 pounds since I started this Journey on January 6, 2014. In my 5.5 weeks with Jason on his meal and workout program I’ve lost 15 pounds. I started on April 11th. I am now working to get under 300 by 4th of July. Let’s go flying again! Coach told me yesterday that I should just do the work and leave the thinking to him. Bastard.
Tomorrow will begin my 20th summer with Bigg Romeo.
Keep all my band mates and family in your thoughts. Lots of driving and lots of stress.
Thank you for reading. Stay safe.