Have you ever noticed life has patterns? If you have, you may have noticed somehow things always work out. It doesn’t seem like it when you are going thru it tho… To say you feel like shit during the process is an understatement.
But somehow everything works out and you grow and the things you think you can’t survive somehow you make it through.
So congrats to you because you have made it thru some messed up stuff in your life and I wanted to let you know that if you are going thru something right now… You will find a way, you always have.
Please always remember that you are stronger than you think… I have a hard time doing that myself. This will serve as a reminder to us both.
That being said and on my mind let me get you off my blog and ready for the weekend quickly.
Be you. Do you. Give zero fucks what people think about you. We will all end up in the same 4 foot hole. What the hell is the difference.
lol. Let’s go!
I am a summer god. I always have been. I didn’t know it at the time. I wanted to go to Disney like all the other kids at school and my parents basically told me to shut up. We have a house at the shore. I was a kid and didn’t know better. I wanted to meet Mickey. I remember my dad bitching in the winter about the mortgage and bills at the shore.. But come summer he’d see my sister and I all tan and having fun and he’d be happy. He was there late saturday into sunday. He wasn’t doing it for him. He was doing it for me. I get that now. Fucked up ain’ t it. I am 48 years old. Took me long enough to not only become my father but get it. I get it too.
I am a summer god. I live for it. I live for the salt air and sun on my skin. I live to get up on that stage singing, screaming, laughing and seeing my friends. I count it down. I work toward it. I pray for it to come faster. My parents and grandma spoiled me with their sacrifices to provide that for me growing up and now I do the same for my family. I work hard all year long for these 3 short months and try to make as memories as I can to hold me till the next. I look forward to a house full of friends, buckets of booze, and the water. It’s finally here.
I am a summer god and Bigg Romeo heads into our 23rd summer kickoff at the shore. I don’t know how many I have left in me. I think that some of the crews health will pose issues this summer. I think as I get a little older, my personal needs and why I do things, change too. So while I am in the best shape of my life going into this one.. I am going to do my best to leave it on that stage every single night and have zero regrets when the summer ends and if I make it to the next, great. If not, I’ll have the memories we’ve created.
I bought another pair of new tux pants and have now creeped into a medium tshirt! WOOP! So no scale this week. I’ll stick to the non-scale victory and rock my schmedium tshirt this weekend.
I am a summer god.
I am ready.