I know it’s been awhile. It’s that point in this journey where I say all the right things to myself again, I write them here to try and grasp it and to hold myself accountable. Somewhere inside my head and my heart I have to convince myself that it’s the way it is and to make sure that my actions in the kitchen, Wawa, in the gym, on the weekends, on the road and out with family and friends that I am making the smart choices that will keep me going in the right direction.
The truth of the matter is that it is a lot easier write about it, wishes, dream to put it into action. I have been able to put it into action before I was so focused before my hernia surgery but I just need to find That fire again. I feel like I woke up this morning, after a great workout last night, feeling just that way. I told my coach and trainer that I was ready and he pretty much just laughed at me so I guess it’s time to put up or show up. I have a personal training session with him tonight so I will be able to stop what my money where my mouth is and if you know me and all my mouth is everywhere, or at least my fingers are. (get your mind out of the gutter).
So I guess I will do my best to catch you up quickly. Weight wise I am about the same as I was last time we talked. Going on vacation for a few days in Florida probably had a lot to do with it. I also got sick while it was there have been on A round of steroids and antibiotics. Before we went away I had to say goodbye to my best friends Snickers. He was just too old and was not living a life that he wanted to live anymore. He was pooping himself a lot and just couldn’t get up and down the one step to get out back without problems and a mess of other things so we had to make a super difficult decision. He is missed very much.
I also decided to buy a shirt heat press and a vinyl cutter and have really gotten into making my own T-shirts. I have always dreamed about making up obnoxious gym T-shirts for myself, and the time has come. Sandy, the singer and the band has been on the receiving end of two of them so far. I also made most of my shirts for my Harry Potter trip to Universal. It’s tedious and time consuming and I really like it.
The band has had some amazing weddings and gigs over last couple weeks. We have been one woman down as far as singers, and while I miss her, really enjoyed the challenge of being able to sing more, and keep business flowing.
Universal was fantastic. You really have to be in shape to go on these trips. One day I felt like Superman and was running up and down steps like crazy, and the next day I was crippled because I was running up and down steps like crazy the day before. I definitely noticed that I was not working out my legs like I used to before I got hurt. So I am going to ramp that up, as much as possible without hurting myself. Halloween Horror nights was awesome it was nice to see my sister and nieces for a few hours as well. I had a really good time, and there wasn’t anything that I wanted to do that I could not. The blue Man group show was one of my favorite things this time around.
So honestly I can tell you about how depressed I have been lately and probably about the voices in my head get the best of me with some of my choices, but I’m not going to. I’m going to man up, except the choices that I’ve made, and push forward with the choices that I want to make to better myself. I can’t I Help what others are doing around me. I can only help what I am doing. You got to start there.
I don’t know where I will be on New Year’s Eve Weight wise, I can tell you this I promise to do my best. That’s where I will be, at my best. In the end that is all I have to offer.
I know it’s been a while and I hope this finds everyone well.
Love ya all.