It’s Friday here in Bucks County Pennsylvania and it’s been want doozy of a week here. I am pretty sure that back in June I wrote about a little 8 year boy who was fighting brain cancer. The band played a benefit for him and ever since not only has he been on my mind but I have been wearing his pray for Dominic and team Dominic wristbands. The band sent a bunch of Lego stuff that was on his Amazon WishList right before Thanksgiving right and he probably never got to play with them, because on Wednesday he passed. Crushed! The most amazing thing that came out of everything was that all the little boy he wanted was for people to pray for him. It definitely brought the community together and it is quite a sight to see. He definitely made a difference in me.
Our New Year’s Eve show canceled on us and so many little things that would usually just trigger a binge for me were fought and push back on. Even going out to dinner I preplanned what I was going to eat and at the same time, drank water and let myself have a little bit extra that bread and oil. I have been frustrated and angry all week, the somethings you can’t control no matter how hard you try. It is whatever. Truth!
So let me push forward and talk about some positives. I am starting to get excited about going to Florida. It makes me smile to think that I’ll get to see my nieces and sister and get to see Disney through their eyes. They know anything and everything about the place. That makes me happy for sure.
Christmas is always a little rough at my place though it has gotten better. I will probably still work out on Christmas, just like last year. It was a fun memory.
The window is decorated. Blow ups all over the place the tree is up, needs to be finished cause Pirlo the puppy really likes to chew on tree branches. So we are doing what we can before Florida to come back to a nice set up!
I started really pushing myself again on November 7th and on December 7th – One month into new/recommitted goals… I am down 15 pounds. Not to shabby. 341.7 down to 326.7 – Sometimes I think it should be more and have to tell myself that it’s much easier to put it on then it is to take off. So let’s just go for another 15 this month. That will bring me back to a very good and happy place for sure. Then from there we’ll figure it out again.
I have been hitting the workouts hard and most of this week kept my macros at 1600 calories. I can’t keep them there forever but it did get my scale to move in the right direction cause Monday’s weigh-in was scary and I had to re-adjust and re-evaluate. You can read more about the way I am eating and macros by googling IIFYM – it will come right up! It’s working for me but it takes a lot of effort and consideration. I will do my best to get to the next goal.
I went to the plastic surgeon today too. I wrote about getting approval for my right leg/thigh tuck not too long ago. The insurance company only approved 1 leg – FUCKED UP! Here is this leg that looks kinda okay.. and here is the other one that looks like the bat Fred Flinstone always carried around. Yeah. Thanks Aetna. Well he seemed like he could get it done for me so now we’ll be in a waiting pattern to see what they say! Just makes me wanna work that much harder because it will all happen soon enough.
This site will be 3 years old in a few weeks. I thought for sure I’d be further along but life happens. I am still here though. Still pushing. Still trying my best!
Lets see what January 6th will bring!
Have a great weekend!