Sometimes it’s way easier to build yourself up t0 blog when things are going your way. And sometimes it’s not. I can’t say things aren’t going my way but I just thought the weight would come off more rapidly than it has been. I’m starting to find out that I absolutely hate logging everything that goes into my mouth. I already need a break. I also know that doing lazy keto will not work for me because I will be so lazy that I’ll eat a pound of salami in one shot.
On Sunday morning I was down over 13 pounds. And then all of a sudden five seem to fly right back on overnight. Yes, I had a few extra drinks on Sunday afternoon. I did not realize what a difference it would make to my body. My body absolutely stayed in ketosis this whole time. It should be burning fat but the alcohol messes with that. No matter what you think about calories in or calories out, your body is going to stop what it’s doing, and burn the alcohol off first. I did much better the week before with just two drinks a day and making sure that it fit in my macros. It’s still been 18 days, I am down just about 11.5 pounds. A lot of people would be happy with that. Why can’t I be like a lot of people LOL.
That is OK. I am OK. Ironically my body fat is going down. I can’t do anymore, and I can’t possibly eat any less. I am going to do an extended fast next week. I’m going to try to get to at least 60 hours starting late Sunday. This worked for me last time. It’s going to have to work for me again. I don’t want to go to crazy because once I get to Orlando, I’m going to try to stick to Keto but I am not going to count anything, It’s 4 days and my 50th birthday.
Thank you to Aram and Kellykell for your Harry Potter robe “make Franco even dorkier” fund donation. Right now I’m still drinking butter beer with it, I am about $50 away. If this is the first you’re hearing about this, it started with a joke and then various friends started sending me Venmo @francosicilia to buy one of those authentic school robes to wear around on my 50th birthday. I said that, if someone bought it for me I would do it. So apparently I’m getting close. I just found out that they actually have a wand pocket on the inside LOL shit might be getting real. This also brings a crazy smile to my face.
A new peloton power zone challenge started and I am wrapped up in it already. I am getting all my workouts in and doing the best I can.
My friend Sara helped me get my resume looking decent and I have been spending a lot of time on LinkedIn pushing it out there. Some of my old colleagues have even sent me some leads, and I had my first interview a few days ago. Waiting to see what the next step is. The company is very close to home and I think I would like it very much. But I’m not getting my hopes up, I’m not putting all my eggs in that basket. I am just pushing forward. Seems to be my motto lately.
Pennsylvania unemployment is totally screwed up and I haven’t gotten a payment since Christmas so it’s time to get a job and get back out there. I had a little bit of a break and I realize that that break is not for me. It makes me think about what I’m going to eat next way too much throughout the day. I actually wouldn’t mind going to work somewhere with my little meal prep box. I think that would work wonders for me on the schedule. It’s either that or I would practice intermittent fasting throughout the week and a smaller eating window.
Sooooo I am starting to realize that Facebook is making me an angry person. I lashed out a lot this weekend, and I really think it’s just all the anger that’s out there on social media. I can turn off for a while, then I won’t be able to post crap for the band. I have had to mute, or snooze some of my closest friends. It’s just too fucking much. These people are so concerned about who the president is but couldn’t tell you who are local reps are. While the president can make decisions in broad strokes, I always thought that the most important pod text for us where are the people that affect us at home. I don’t know. Maybe I should’ve paid more attention in social studies. It’s disheartening.
ANYWAY! But either during the day or later in the evening I’ll try to spend over an hour looking at job postings, applying to things that I would like to actually do and not just throwing my resume out there. I’m going to try harder to network with friends because I think those are the easiest things to do. I’m not sure how many people actually get a job through LinkedIn. I have not started to put anything out on indeed because last time I tried I got blasted with emails. It took a year to stop getting emails. If anyone has any suggestions out there please let me know.
So I think at the very least the few things I can leave you with, no matter who the hell you think your president is, let love rule. Let it go. There is a lot of work to be done because the last few months totally screwed us up no matter what. We are gonna be screwed up for a long time to come.
I touched on this last week, if you’re struggling no matter how, it’s OK to ask for help. You got this. You have pushed through more crap than this. You are still here.
Don’t be afraid to fall on your face because you can get up. You are strong. You are enough. And while I’m trying to stick to a certain program I do know that if it doesn’t work in a couple weeks I’m going to have to come up with a new game plan. That is OK. I can handle it. I’m not afraid to fall my face. It sucks but we all can get up.
We will be the hopeful.
LET LOVE RULE!