I actually had to go back and look at some old blogs to look at some of my goals for 2018. Ironically that is really why this blog exists. To keep myself motivated, to hold myself accountable, and to maybe help someone else in need. Whether that is physically or mentally.
I said at the end of the year that I was going to make good on the promises that I made to myself and my body in the past. DONE!
I never skip the gym no matter how bad I want to. And I think I have gotten the kitchen portion of my life style on track and in a routine.
Broken people can be put back together. You just can’t depend on anyone else to do it for you. No one can fix you. I have plenty of scotch tape to fix myself. Duct tape is sticky.
So looking at some of the other goals. No more than two drinks at my shows. I typically stick to this if not, I’m not drinking at all. My friends still don’t like me super sober. I honestly rather eat my calories if that’s going to be the case.
The size 40 jeans that I have been talking about for over four years are now loose on me.
I wanted to buy more experiences in 2018 and I think other than going away, which did not happen, we are going to concerts, and places, musicals, and a few day trips up our sleeve that I can check this on my list. I mean once you go to a Philadelphia Eagles Super Bowl parade, cnot many other things can compare.
Find a job that makes me happy – Hmmm I think the verdict is still out. I am getting better at my job and finding a decent balance working remotely and traveling a little bit. I think it might be a keeper once I don’t feel like I am floundering so much.
I wanted to look and FEEL the best that I can at Brandon (my son’s) wedding – This is the first weekend in 2019 and I think I got this one down…
Get back in the helicopter and soar about Wildwood – I did not soar this summer and I could have. I was under the weight limit. We just didn’t get to it and then summer was over. They are from York PA! Might have to do a day tip and go see some different skies. Can I fly over Philly?
So if you keeping mental track as you are reading this! I have already knocked out all but one of 2018’s goals.
The one goal to lose 50 pounds in 2018.
As of this morning, that goal is accomplished and I have added another 10 pounds to that. 50.5 lbs lost so far in 2018! MOTHER FUCKING GOAL ACCOMPLISHED player! 60lbs here I come!
I basically have to go to Kohls and get a new belt because the one that Amber bought me with all my new work clothes – I am on the last hole already. I also need a brand-new tuxedo because thank God for suspenders otherwise I would’ve been in a lot of trouble at this past weekend’s wedding, but I think I’m going to embrace having big pants for a while and get a new tuxedo before the wedding.
I know if some of my friends out there are struggling and trying to work different things out.
Remember you got this.
Self-control–a way of controlling myself in a mannerly way. I know that definition by heart because I had a jerk off sixth grade teacher who made us write that 1 million times on the blackboard when we got in trouble. Guess who always got trouble? Turns out he was a child molester and just did not like fat kids. I sure as hell wrote that at least 1 million if not two. Self-control is a very hard thing for many people. I have issues with it as well. I let myself have too many treats and then I easily spiral. It’s only today, then tomorrow. Too many damn excuses. So I just do my best to stay and check at all times.
I don’t even know what to else to say this week. The wedding last weekend with the band was awesome. I Really kind of wasted Sunday laying around watching the Eagles game and I promised myself that I’m going to try and be more active on Sundays. I’m getting a bike rack and hitch installed this weekend and I’m going to take a few day trips on Sundays.
Went to see Butch Walker last night in Asbury Park. Asbury Park is awesome. Definitely a nice place to go walk around for an hour or two and suck in some salty air.
I get to fast walk/run/God knows why am doing this, a 5K on Sunday and just want to thank anyone reading or who donated. That was incredibly nice of you. You probably just wanted to hear me bitch about hating to run more.
Well I hope this finds everyone well.
Thank you to so many people that are always in my corner. I could not do this without you. The support is amazing. The million snapchats, instagram posts, ans selfies, are not about me. They are about committing to yourself, making good on promises to yourself, and most importantly that if can do it and you need to do it, you can too. Your story is important and you are not alone.
We can get better, because we’re not dead yet
.50 pounds since April/2018 mother fuckers 🙂 Yes I am stoked.
Till next week!