Hey guess what? I’ve lost 3.7 pounds since last week. I went from 333.7 to 330.0. I figured that I would just get to it this week and tell you. Ive tried very hard to keep my carbs down. Not eat a lot a night and just keep pushing forward. I’ve worked out every day. I’ve been playing with the heart rate monitor that I bought too. I am no where near some of these people on Instagram that have 1200 calories burned in a 90 minute workout but I am burning something. I would have loved to have been at 329.9. I moved on the scale for about 30 seconds trying to trick it into helping me out but it just wouldn’t budge. The scale doesn’t lie. Your heart and your head will play tricks on you. But the scale is a fucking brutal, heart wrenching bitch. And I am not a poet.
Life is full of triggers. On Monday I had to put my beloved cat Romeo down. That’s 2 pets in 6 months if you are keeping track. When I pulled out of the vet’s driveway the first thing I thought about was Dairy Queen. I wanted to shove my face inside something that would comfort me. I didn’t. I pretty much just went home and cried like an overgrown gorilla. He was the one that always came to me. Sat with me. He hasn’t in the last few months. I really should have known something was wrong. Even though I know there was nothing that I could do really.
I am on week 2 of my couch to 5k training. If it does anything for me, it just gets my heart rate going faster than my normal walk. It definitely makes me sweat. I really admire runners. I will never be one, but I sure as hell admire them.
There are 84 days until New Years and 90 till my goal date on January 6th, 2015. As much as I feel that I am doing what I can, I know that I can do better so I will try even harder. I hired a personal trainer. Her name is Erica. Yes, I am going to get my ass handed to me by a girl. Fitness by Erica runs out of the boot camp space I go to and watching everyone over there she not only seems to be the best bang for your buck, (Hey, this stuff isn’t cheap) but seems to be someone with compassion and understanding. She also seems to want to be on team Franco and to help me get where I need to get sooner than later. She’s helped me and written things up for me without asking for anything in return and she was a good choice for me. We are going to train once a week together and then I’ll follow the program for the rest of the week. I bought a 5 pack so in my head I will get me focused for the next 5 weeks taking me close to Thanksgiving. I am a little nervous but that’s a good thing.
Two great shows this weekend. Lot’s of fun planned. I need to keep vigilant and not slide off the plan. I got this! #teamfranco