I have to be honest, a part of me wants to just wait to post this until next wee, the other part of me says that I need to post every week, and that’s what I try to do, and although it is late in the afternoon on Friday and nobody is probably going to read this, that is what accountability is all about. It’s supposed to be for me. Mine
So maybe for once I will just keep this short.
I don’t know what is wrong with me this week but I am pretty sure I’ve been a prick the entire week at home.
I have definitely been short and angry, with those around me. And I don’t know why because I have had a good week for the most part. I had to go to Reading on Tuesday for work and work has not been so bad this week. I basically just ended a week five and I am suriving. But all I can say is I will try to lighten the fuck up and be better.
So let’s talk about this weeks accomplishments. I came out of the weekend and a short carb/ice cream load at the previous weeks weight. Okay that’s cool. Then all of a sudden a few pounds washed off me and now I sit 2 to 3 pounds away from my goal for the year. Can you believe that I have lost 47 pounds since April? I can’t. But I think the people that know the struggle to just lose 5 pounds know how big a deal this is. I am going to hit my goal over the next two weeks because I will lose a pound a week if it kills me. I hope to be at goal by next weeks blog. But life doesn’t usually for like that for me.
And trust me, I honestly understand that weight is just a number in the end. When I started 4 1/2 years ago I was a size 60 jeans now I am a 40. I was wearing a 5X T-shirt now I can get away with an XL and probably can fit into a large. I can fit in any chair that I want to sit in. I don’t have to look for one that has no arms. I can fit in any seat and a concert although at 6’3 my knees still hit the seat in front of me. I don’t have to be uncomfortable getting on an airplane. This is what being healthy to me is all about.
So I’m going to leave it at that this week. I did the work in the gym and in the kitchen and I’m going into the weekend. All I can do is my best. My best might not be the same as yours. But that’s why it is mine.
I hope that when I write you again and I’ll have some good news, some before and after photos. And that I won’t be cranky as fuck anymore.
But in the four years plus since I started this. I am down almost 125 pounds. Although I still have a coach, I have not really bothered him for workouts or macro tweaking since early May. I’ve been doing this all on my own. That is what getting a little bit a knowledge and doing what you can with it is all about.
I know a lot of friends out there are trying to get it right now so I give you a lot of credit. Get every thing you can out of the next couple months. Don’t wait till the new year, don’t wait till after the holidays, it just gets harder and harder. Stare down your goal, tell it to go fuck itself, and go after it,
I hope everyone has a fantastic weekend. No matter what, thank you for being in my corner.