I hope that through the silence you find yourself well. Other than alerting everyone about my blogs. I have kind of taken a short break. I’m still lurking on IG – Trying not to scroll up and down Facebook too much because it drives me bat shit crazy. And if I really had to push something out there in to the world I just use Twitter.
I have been trying to follow my advice to create a better inside out. I want to be more mindful. Period.
You’d be surprised going through your Instagram and Snapchat and turning off stories that Annoy you, or Trigger you. You can do it for you. It’s OK to let people who are way more important in their own heads feel that way without you having to see every single thing they post. I am sure there are plenty of people to have me muted on all social media. To be quite honest I would rather you delete me. I now call that being “Theresa’d.” Because I can, and it makes me laugh.
Having too many weekends off with the band are not good for me. I need to be singing. I might not like the cold, or the driving late at night anymore but I miss singing.
To save a few bucks and not do too much, I ended up having a little game night here on Saturday. I made sure that I had plenty of keto food available. And I most likely downed 3/4 of a bag of Doritos on top of it because they were there and I have no self-control. Thank God the next day I was actually fine otherwise or I would’ve beat myself up too much. It was fun and the late-night conversations were good and plentiful.
The next day after reading a lot about fasting on Reddit I decided that I wanted to do a 24 hour fast. It would not have the same benefits as it 48 or a 72 hour fast to breakaway a fat loss plateau but I wanted to do it more or less to prove my mental strength. I started at 5:30pm on Sunday evening after a big burger and then went to 530 on Monday evening. It was not hard whatsoever. Definitely a better mind fuck when you do it because you want to and not because the doctor is making you fast for 24 hours before some procedure and or test. I just wanted to prove myself that I could do it and I did. I think I’m going to add that to my regime a couple times a month to just rewire my body a little bit.
The Internet. Full of so much shit that can fuck up your head but if you really weed through it, you can find some worthwhile things. A group I follow, decided to do a 10K a day for five days, step challenge. Okay no problem I am in. Then I realized it at most I get 4000 to 5000 steps and that is being generous. So it took me off the elliptical this week and onto the treadmill which I almost never do. And will most likely take me to the mall today to walk in much warmer weather. It is fucking cold here. So it all depends on what you Takeaway from the Internet.
So I guess it’s time to talk about this weeks lesson from all the books that’s I’ve read this month. Do you see all thew reading that I am saving you from. But I liker to really sit there ands think about it come up with my own thought and this is something that I know I let myself fall victim to.
YOU ARE NOT A DOORMAT!
If you feel that you’re being mistaken for one then get off the floor and brush yourself off. You have better places to be. Being a doormat can happen at home or at work. I know it’s harder and sometimes more relevant for women and mothers because they always tend to put themselves last.
But we deserve the same level of care and respect as everyone else. Believe it, and act on it. I strongly believe that a part of your happiness depends on it. remember that you get what you SETTLE for.
If you can’t get off the floor by yourself without help, then ask for it. Reach out to your fit fam, support, friends. I am constantly amazed at people’s willingness to help others once they know there is a problem. I know I am wired that way and that’s how I was raised. You can ask for help and then realize that one day it will be your turn to help.
You are never too old for lasting change.
Okay, that will have to do it for this week on that front. Time to catch you up and wind you down.
So realizing that sometimes silence is very loud, I woke up yesterday and decided to slowly come out of it. I had friends reach out to check on me and at the same time tell me how much they are motivated by seeing what I am up to so it was time to wake up.
The scale is working with me this week although open Monday she was about to get winged out the bathroom window. I am down 3 lbs and I am 7 from a milestone weight. Sometimes I wish I could find my old medical records because I’d like to see when I was this weight last. Not sure who I’d go about that. I am not sure if it’s the 30,000 plus steps I’ve walked. the rest that gave my body last week, the fast I did Monday, but whatever it is weighed pretty much the same yesterday and today so I know that this weight is finally here to stay and now it’s my job to push off off this.
Do you want totals? Fine.
Let’s get it.
Since April 2018 – I have lost 78lbs and over 15% body fat and went from a 46 jean to a 34 jean! WOOOP WOOOP!
Since Jan 2013 – I have lost 155lbs. A 60 jean to a 34.
So trust me. No matter where you are on your journey, KEEP PUSHING FORWARD!!!!!!!!
Till Next week, You know where to find me.