What happens when twenty four inches of snow are dumped on you, your work is canceled and you’re stuck in the house. Well for someone’s been dieting for two years dance is pretty simple, You eat everything in sight. I lost the fight for couple days can Got on the scale at almost 305 pounds on Monday morning. I was able to recover and pull it back to where it needed to be and under 300lbs and pretty much get myself a little under last weeks weight in at 298.7. Not bad. Not great. I am struggling because after 2-3 weeks of taco meet and chicken I am over it. And I am sorry, no matter how you dress it. It’s still chicken. You can only have so much lean ground meat a week too so I am just a little frustrated even though I should be walking on cloud 9 finally getting under 300 and kinda staying there. But then there is stress. And stress wants me to eat everything in sight. And before your head starts spinning, I am not much of an over eater. I am more of a.. I want Cheetos, Mountain Dew and a king size Twix eater.
I did Orange Theory on Monday and Tuesday this week because I had to use them before my billing cycle ended. I went to iDominate classes Tuesday and Wednesday as well as bootcamps Monday and Wednesday. I really miss working out my body in parts. A much as I want to hire a new trainer, I have been waiting for last weeks “Job interview” call back and don’t want to start something that I might not be able to finish. So now it’s a waiting game. I have 13lbs to my next goal. I wanted to hit is for my birthday so badly but my birthday is in 11 days and I am not sure that will happen. I have either I’m never made realistic goals along this journey or just suck. I think any asshole will the lose it app (not that I’m calling anyone asshole except myself) should be able to follow along and lose 2 pounds a week. I guess this is one of those weeks where I just feel bummed out.
Not working this past weekend, not hearing back from last weeks job interview, and just day-to-day stress has got me bummed out for sure. I went to the range on Tuesday to shoot a little bit and in left in a half hour frustrated as well. I am not sure how to really snap out of it.
I’m going to see Bruce Springsteen on Sunday in Newark and for the first time a long time I am not afraid of my seats. I guess that should be a moral victory for sure. I should be more excited, but I am not. I am not sure why I am feeling this way right now.
I’ll do my best to stay out of my own head, and keep pushing forward. I did not want to skip this weeks blog post. But don’t really have much to say this point.
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